Recently saw a photograph of raindrops on a red rose that was so beautiful! Decided I wanted to paint it and have started over more than a half dozen times. It is in my head but I can’t transfer it to a canvas. The more I try, the more frustrated I become and I just want to give up. The irritation doesn’t stop with the painting.
A light comes on and I stop to pray. John 5:30 states “I can of mine own self do nothing:” Then I see there was no humility nor love in my motive; just a desire to prove “I can do this!” Now, I look in all parts of my life to see where I need to be more loving and humble and know with God’s help, of course I can paint this rose and will release human will power and human outlining but come from expressing Love and sees what shows up on the canvas!
Last night we watched a program about love and forgiveness. This morning I was reminded if either of those are conditional, they cease to be love and forgiveness. One cannot love everyone, but or forgive everyone, but! There are political figures and other celebrities that I didn’t feel I loved and have been very critical of them. As I think about Jesus on the cross and it has been told he even forgave then; shouldn’t I do the same? “Forgive them, Father, for they know not what they do.” That is certainly not saying we should not pray about the world but genuinely know and understand there is a higher power than what we are seeing and there is no stronger power than Love.
While reading about a young man who left a “hate group” when he actually met some of the people he was supposed to hate and realized he didn’t hate them, I began my internal examination of my heart to see where I needed to love more. Philippians 4:8 reads “Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable –if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.” That is exactly what I want to do today, with the help of God.
Last year when my husband bought his car for our second vehicle, it only came with one key which was digital. He was to make an appointment and return to the dealership to have the second key made. He never went back. Today after misplacing the only key, I immediately reminded him that he should have had that second key made last year.
Then I went to pray about it but my thought was so filled with “self-righteousness” and was having a difficult time praying with that type of thinking. A light soon came on for me as I knew I couldn’t subtract to find the answer to an addition problem. Neither could I get a positive result coming from a negative. My thought immediately humbled as I thought about his patience with me so we called our service who sent out someone at no charge to open the door. The key had fallen on the floorboard.
Romans 8:26 reads “In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.” I knew immediately that they would be found when I replaced negative thoughts with love and gratitude.
This afternoon my niece called from another city while visiting her mother, my sister. She put the telephone up to her ear and I was able to tell her that I love her! She has not known me for over five years but my niece said that she smiled a big smile. In my heart I believe she recognized my voice and that call has made my day. Gratitude and humility are filling my spirit as I bask in God’s Love. Psalm 16:11 reads “You will show me the path of life; in Your presence is fulness of joy; at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.”
There is always something to be grateful for and they seem to multiply when we become conscious of them.
Yesterday, I allowed my feelings to be hurt by a dear family member. For a while, there was self-pity, self-justification, self-condemnation, etc. even after knowing that the battle is always God’s, never mine. This morning as I humbly prayed to see what God sees, I was led to Matthew 12:48, 50 which reads “But Jesus answered the one who was telling Him and said, ‘Who is My mother and who are my brothers?'” ‘For whoever does the will of My Father who is in heaven, he is My brother and sister and mother.'”
This is exactly what I needed to hear to remove all of the “self”‘s. Then I began seeing this precious one as a child of God and simply loved her more. Love is always the answer, no matter what the problem seems to be. My prayer recently had been to see God/Love in every situation so I was given that opportunity to do so.
As I sit at my desk, studying and praying, I reflect back over my childhood. Memories come flooding back of all the stories my mother told me of Santa Claus, the tooth fairy, the Easter bunny and on and on. They were all fabricated and I was told all of these things by someone who claimed to love me unconditionally. After discussing this with a dear friend and mentor, she simply said “Your mom’s motive was pure and from Love.” A light clicked on in my consciousness and no longer did I focus on those stories, but her Love!
Then I was reminded of calls I may receive asking for prayerful help and sometimes, I may be having the same challenge. When we talk about God and His Healing power, there is an issue of hypocrisy that needs to be addressed in my thinking. Once again, my motive is pure and the caller may even see the Truth before I do, but God protects my motive. Jeremiah 3l:3 reads “The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: ‘I have loved you with an everlasting love I have drawn you with loving-kindness.'” Always, always check your motive and make certain it is from Love.
Recently while visiting another city for five days, and after our first taxi ride which was pricey, my husband and I agreed to learn to ride the subway which would be much more cost-effective since we had numerous meetings to attend. We were sitting on the “T” and looking over the map of the city and becoming more and more confused. Sitting next to us was a young man with his ear plugs in and reading. It was apparent he was from the middle east and we then wondered if he spoke English. Then we thought he may not want to be disturbed, but finally my husband leaned over and tapped him on the shoulder. Immediately, he took out his ear pieces and smiled asking how he could help us. The next fifteen minutes he not only explained what we should do and where we should depart and get back on, he also told us he was working on his PHD in medical science and going home, which was the mid-east, to visit family. Our time with him was so loving, enlightening and helpful but we had to overcome fear first.
Isaiah 60:2 reads “See, darkness covers the earth and thick darkness is over the peoples, but the Lord rises upon you and His glory appears over you.” The darkness became light as we listened, obeyed and just loved!