Last week packages of baked goodies were mailed to grandchildren and a great-niece in New York City. Paying for it to go second day, it was to be delivered on Friday, which it wasn’t and on Saturday, they left a notice at her door. On Monday, she went to the post office and was told it was on the truck and she would have to come back later. Here, at home, I began angry and called the local post office and was told it was out of her hands after it left here. Feeling very justified, I wanted to continue on until I knew I was trying to be right. The choice was mine. Did I want to turn to God or continue to be right and unhappy? I was led to Ephesians 3:20-21 which reads “Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.”
There was a total feeling of helplessness when it dawned on me that I am helpless without God, which can never be. I can’t pick and choose when I turn to God, but I knew I just experienced “human will” and “pride” and “ego”. As I release this to God, I know He has this! Rather than have my day ruined, I am rejoicing that I am not in control but knowing God is!
This morning while at my desk, I received two separate phone calls for prayer for another family member. Each wasn’t aware of the other call. This request was for someone that I had had seeming occasion over the years to not like.
As I began to pray, I had to replace personal feelings with God’s Love and know I couldn’t do this without His help. Soon, the past history just vanished into its native nothingness as I recognized this individual as God’s child. My heart filled with Love and I opened my Bible to Revelation 19:1 which states “After this I heard what sounded like the roar of a great multitude in heaven shouting: ‘Hallelujah! Salvation and glory and power belong to our God.'”
Love quickly replaced bitterness and I knew only healing was going on!
This morning as I was studying the third chapter of I Kings from the 16th verse about the story of the two harlots who gave birth and one of the babies passed away and they were both claiming to be the mother of the living one. King Solomon had to rectify this and said they should split the baby into and give each mother a piece. The real mother was willing to let him go so that he would live while the other chose the other way. I Kings 3: 27 reads “Then the king answered and said, Give her the living child, and in no wise slay it: she is the mother thereof.” To me it says I need to release control of my child and let God lead the way in order for his spiritual growth. By going even further, it probably means to release control of any idea to Love and forget about human outlining since that is so often death to an idea.
My heart fills with gratitude as I realize I needn’t be obsessive about anything but be joyous because only Good is going on!
While rejoicing about the rescue of the young boys from the cave in Thailand, I first thought of things said about the assistant coach being irresponsible in taking them inside the cave. Now, it has been revealed that the same young man had studied to be a monk and not only had he taught the boys how to meditate he had shared his food and water with them. How wonderful! Once again, I was reminded of how we should view others through God’s eyes, which is Love.
2 Corinthians 4:6-7 states ” For God, who said, Let light shine out of darkness, made His light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ. But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us.”
This morning I am praying and knowing that man can never be separated from God. God never changes nor leaves us and we don’t have the power to leave Him. How reassuring is that? The Bible tells us that throughout! Psalm 139:1-4 reads, ” O Lord, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord.”
That is unconditional Love and God knows our heart, never condemning but patiently waiting for us to awaken. My prayer today is to release “self-absorption” and hear what God is directing me to do and see. Gratitude and humility will be prayer.
Luke 6:37 reads, “Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven”. To me, this means to quit comparing because it either leads to inferiority or superiority. I will not look for affirmation today in the wrong places, only to God!