Often when we are uncomfortable, the first thing we choose to do is to complain. It is exactly at this time, things surface in our thoughts that need to be handled, addressed and released. If they stay buried, how are they overcome? To me, it is a reminder that these very obstacles are hand-tailored for my very own spiritual growth. It is also a reminder that I am nothing without God.
2 Corinthians 1:8-9 reads “We do not want you to be uninformed, brothers, about the hardships we suffered in the province of Asia. We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired even of life. Indeed, in our hearts we felt the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead.”
This morning as I was studying the third chapter of I Kings from the 16th verse about the story of the two harlots who gave birth and one of the babies passed away and they were both claiming to be the mother of the living one. King Solomon had to rectify this and said they should split the baby into and give each mother a piece. The real mother was willing to let him go so that he would live while the other chose the other way. I Kings 3: 27 reads “Then the king answered and said, Give her the living child, and in no wise slay it: she is the mother thereof.” To me it says I need to release control of my child and let God lead the way in order for his spiritual growth. By going even further, it probably means to release control of any idea to Love and forget about human outlining since that is so often death to an idea.
My heart fills with gratitude as I realize I needn’t be obsessive about anything but be joyous because only Good is going on!
My daily prayer is for more grace and humility. Today, I found this prayer answered fully and I was uncomfortable and a little resentful. Then I was gently reminded that my prayer was being fulfilled and Hebrews 12:11 came to thought. It reads, “All discipline for the moment seems not to be joyful, but sorrowful; yet to those who have been trained by it, afterwards it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness.” As I stepped back and viewed the experience, I was truly blest by this gentle nudge in spiritual growth. There is never a retrograde step in growth and for this, I am grateful.