Yesterday, I allowed my feelings to be hurt by a dear family member. For a while, there was self-pity, self-justification, self-condemnation, etc. even after knowing that the battle is always God’s, never mine. This morning as I humbly prayed to see what God sees, I was led to Matthew 12:48, 50 which reads “But Jesus answered the one who was telling Him and said, ‘Who is My mother and who are my brothers?'” ‘For whoever does the will of My Father who is in heaven, he is My brother and sister and mother.'”
This is exactly what I needed to hear to remove all of the “self”‘s. Then I began seeing this precious one as a child of God and simply loved her more. Love is always the answer, no matter what the problem seems to be. My prayer recently had been to see God/Love in every situation so I was given that opportunity to do so.
About six weeks ago, I sent a letter to a show called “Returning The Favor” which is a documentary about someone who is doing some good and making a difference. For the past ten years our daughter and her husband have gone around giving away over one-half million pairs of new shoes to children who have none or old or hand-me-downs. Our son-in-law is a grief counselor and is called to disaster areas to help out.
Out of thousands of letters, mine was chosen so this past month has been a little stressful. This past week my brother and his wife and my niece and others joined us in a surprise event where the documentary was filmed while giving out new shoes to kiddos. They were later given 1,000 pairs of awesome shoes and 10,000 pairs of wonderful socks along with a $25,000 check. This morning, I could barely get out of bed and felt emotionally drained. The first thought I had was one of “let down” similar to after Christmas feelings. Within ten minutes, I recognized this as a world belief that we will come down after such a “high” period. I refuted this erroneous thought and turned wholeheartedly to God where I read in 1 Chronicles 16:11 “Look to the Lord and His strength; seek His face always.”
That is exactly what I did and was so grateful I had experienced such love and giving this week. We do not have to buy into any such belief ever! It was so freeing to discover that and make it real for me.