Almost twenty years have passed since the dissolution of a 33-year marriage when my two sons were already adults. Recently I read an article by a woman who found healing from a divorce on Thanksgiving while feeling sorry for herself because one of her children were with her ex and his new wife. She was studying the story of King Solomon with the two women fighting over the baby.
As I was pondering this, I remembered that deep down I had not wanted my sons to have anything to do with their dad. What I saw was that those feelings of anger, bitterness and loss were like the King’s sword dividing that baby. He had suggested he use a sword to divide the infant and the false mother had agreed while the real one had said to give the baby to the other woman. In fact, using the sword would hurt the very ones I dearly loved. I had thought I had my healing long ago as I had forgiven both my ex and myself but I saw there was more to forgive. While forgiving myself, I saw the growth that has taken place in my life since then and I am so grateful. Forgiveness, gratitude and humility were all necessary to heal this old wound. I Kings 3:25-27 states “The king said, ‘Divide the living child in two, and give half to the one and half to the other.’ Then the woman whose child was the living one spoke to the king, for she was deeply stirred over her son and aid, ‘Oh, my lord, give her the living child, and by no means kill him.’ But the other said, ‘He shall be neither mine nor yours; divide him.!’ Then the king said, ‘Give the first woman the living child, and by no means kill him. She is his mother.'”
Realizing that I had to give up personal claim to my sons so they could experience so much more love, as well as myself. Gratitude always finds healing.
Yesterday on our way home from a road trip we came into this small town where traffic was backed up and as we got closer, there were police stationed on every corner of the downtown square. Wherever we looked there were trick or treaters pulling their parents along and it was precious. The temperature was going to drop so all the merchants were giving out candy early.
The more I looked, I thought of the little children in the Bible where it says a little child shall lead them. Matthew 18:3 states “Truly, I say unto you, unless you are converted and become like little children, you will not enter the kingdom of Heaven.” That is talking about “childlikeness”, never “childishness”. The first is purity, innocence and affection while the latter is selfish and prideful. We should strive for the first!
Then I went on to think how Adam and Eve came on the scene as adults while the Christ began as an infant! So much to think about as we pray to learn more of God and our relationship to Him. What a thrilling journey we are on.
Someone I love is going through a challenge and I want to help! Since I have contacts, it seems natural to help get this done. Also, there are financial resources needed and I feel I can make the needed phone calls. Then, as I quieten my thoughts in prayer, it comes to me to slow down and turn wholeheartedly to God. Certainly I will take human footsteps as I am led, but I needn’t yield to human will, but to God. My heart overflows with gratitude to witness my own growth.
There was a time when I would have gotten the job done one way or another, but by willful force. My gratitude is that I now realize I don’t know the spiritual growth this person needs and God is always on the job and I trust Him implicitly. Have been praying with 1 Thessalonians 5:18 which reads “Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”
When Jesus healed the ten lepers, He told them to go show themselves to the priests! This was even before they were healed. This was certainly a call for faith to know they would be healed. As we pray, we have to begin with our spiritual perfection as a reflection of the one God and this knowledge and understanding brings about healing.
Psalm 5:2-3 states “Listen to my cry for help, my King and my God, for to you I pray. In the morning, O Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation.”
Recently, our grandson, who is graduating from college with honors, was awarded a scholarship for his masters degree in another state. There is a fellowship given of $10,000 to several and our grandson was the first alternate. Last week we drove over to take pictures of him in his cap and gown. While there, we were talking about how we could help with expenses while he finds a part time job when he moves. As I told him I was praying he responded he didn’t want to get the money if someone else had to turn it down due to illness or anything like that.
We talked and knew God didn’t work like that because what blesses one blesses all. 1 Thessalonians 5:18 states “Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” I prayed with that verse.
Yesterday, he called so thrilled. He had been awarded $10,000 for expenses. The young man that had turned it down had been granted another one from another school which had been his first choice. God is the only power there is and I will claim that today.
This morning as I am thinking about events in the news; many powerful people being humbled due to sexual misconduct and I began to pray. We have heard repeatedly that nothing hidden will not be revealed and in so doing, there has to be correction of wrong doing. So often there is a void and people choose lesser gods to worship as in people, possessions, and power. There is only one God and He is a jealous God! He is Omnipotent, Omnipresent, Omniscient Good so there is no place for a lesser power.
By bringing this into the open, these errors can begin to heal. In the beginning of the Bible, error appears as a serpent (an evil suggestion) and by the time we get to Revelations, it has become a large dragon, but that is when it is destroyed. So rather than a bad thing that is happening, things can only be healed if they are revealed. These are not bad people but people who have made wrong choices. Today I will love even more as I witness chastening everywhere.
Colossians 2:2-3 states “My purpose is that they may be encouraged in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely, Christ, in whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge.”