This morning as I came to my desk to study and pray, the thought came about my upcoming anniversary. In preparation for this, we prepaid a week-long trip to the mid-eastern states and have been discussing from time to time what shows we wanted to attend. Normally, we would be beginning to pack. A heaviness almost came upon me in the guise of disappointment and discouragement. It took less that twenty minutes for me to recognize evil, error or whatever you choose to call it and I knew I had a choice! I could wallow in self-pity or I could be so grateful for all the things in my life. I chose the latter.
Separation from God or Good is impossible and there is never a limitation of good. My mood lifted immediately as I thought of the kingdom of heaven being within me and I thought of John 15:11 which reads “I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete.” Thank you, God for your angel messages.
About six weeks ago, I sent a letter to a show called “Returning The Favor” which is a documentary about someone who is doing some good and making a difference. For the past ten years our daughter and her husband have gone around giving away over one-half million pairs of new shoes to children who have none or old or hand-me-downs. Our son-in-law is a grief counselor and is called to disaster areas to help out.
Out of thousands of letters, mine was chosen so this past month has been a little stressful. This past week my brother and his wife and my niece and others joined us in a surprise event where the documentary was filmed while giving out new shoes to kiddos. They were later given 1,000 pairs of awesome shoes and 10,000 pairs of wonderful socks along with a $25,000 check. This morning, I could barely get out of bed and felt emotionally drained. The first thought I had was one of “let down” similar to after Christmas feelings. Within ten minutes, I recognized this as a world belief that we will come down after such a “high” period. I refuted this erroneous thought and turned wholeheartedly to God where I read in 1 Chronicles 16:11 “Look to the Lord and His strength; seek His face always.”
That is exactly what I did and was so grateful I had experienced such love and giving this week. We do not have to buy into any such belief ever! It was so freeing to discover that and make it real for me.
Recently a friend told me that she had left her purse at the grocery store in the cart outside and driven away. The next day as she was frantically searching for her phone, she thought to call the store. Someone had found it outside and taken it inside. After retrieving the purse, she discovered everything was in it’s place, including the cash she had. Briefly she wanted to scold herself for letting this happen, when she realized how fortunate she had been that a kind, honest and caring person had found it. That is where the focus should be!
John 11:40 states “Then Jesus said, ‘Did I not tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory of God?'” Miracles are actually the ‘Norm” when we faithfully look through God’s eyes rather than through naked, erring human eyes.
Last week packages of baked goodies were mailed to grandchildren and a great-niece in New York City. Paying for it to go second day, it was to be delivered on Friday, which it wasn’t and on Saturday, they left a notice at her door. On Monday, she went to the post office and was told it was on the truck and she would have to come back later. Here, at home, I began angry and called the local post office and was told it was out of her hands after it left here. Feeling very justified, I wanted to continue on until I knew I was trying to be right. The choice was mine. Did I want to turn to God or continue to be right and unhappy? I was led to Ephesians 3:20-21 which reads “Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.”
There was a total feeling of helplessness when it dawned on me that I am helpless without God, which can never be. I can’t pick and choose when I turn to God, but I knew I just experienced “human will” and “pride” and “ego”. As I release this to God, I know He has this! Rather than have my day ruined, I am rejoicing that I am not in control but knowing God is!
This morning at the grocery store there was an error made and it took a while for the cashier to get it rectified. On the way home, I rehearsed the event in order to tell my husband what had happened. All at once, I was reminded I had a choice here. Rather than ruminating over the error, I could catch my thinking and replace it with the thought that she was a precious child of God! My thought lifted and I realized I was free from negative thinking and it was always up to me!
“But the fruit of the Spirit is Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.” Galatians 5:22-23