This is almost embarrassing to share and I think I will anyway. Since I bank online, my credit score is available with one click. From time to time, I will check it. It is always very, very high and I am glad of that, but today it had dropped almost 100 points. Then I found myself wondering what could have happened. Nothing had changed and I did spend some time questioning this.
It is wise to keep up with bills, etc. but to let it effect your self-worth may need to be addressed. My self-worth has nothing to do with my bank account, price of my home or car or credit rating. Nobody’s true identity depends upon that information. Job 22:21 states “Submit to God and be at peace with Him; in this way prosperity will come to you.”
My heart fills with humility as I think about spending thirty minutes trying to figure something like that out humanly. At the same time, I am filled with gratitude to see how far I have come! Thank you, Father that I caught my thinking earlier than I would have years ago.
Yesterday, I allowed my feelings to be hurt by a dear family member. For a while, there was self-pity, self-justification, self-condemnation, etc. even after knowing that the battle is always God’s, never mine. This morning as I humbly prayed to see what God sees, I was led to Matthew 12:48, 50 which reads “But Jesus answered the one who was telling Him and said, ‘Who is My mother and who are my brothers?'” ‘For whoever does the will of My Father who is in heaven, he is My brother and sister and mother.'”
This is exactly what I needed to hear to remove all of the “self”‘s. Then I began seeing this precious one as a child of God and simply loved her more. Love is always the answer, no matter what the problem seems to be. My prayer recently had been to see God/Love in every situation so I was given that opportunity to do so.
This morning I read and re-read this passage which states “And as Jesus passed by, He saw a man which was blind from his birth. And His disciples asked Him, saying, Master, who did sin, this man, or his parents, that he was born blind? Jesus answered, neither hath this man sinned, nor his parents: but that the works of God should be made manifest in him.”
Whenever we have a challenge, it is never, ever punishment but is only the opportunity to know God better and our relationship to Him! There can be no inheritance of family weaknesses or traits when we truly understand everything is to glorify God. So often, we want to look for a cause in the human scene and that search only leads to confusion. By keeping our focus on God/Good, what we need to know is always revealed to us. Man can never be separated from God.
Yesterday we were on a four-hour flight home after a week-end of Church meetings. As the plane filled up, there was a young man across the aisle from us who was obviously suffering. His eyes were red and he constantly was wiping his face with a tissue and blowing his nose. He would alternate from putting his head on the tray in front of him to pulling his cap over his face to lean back and attempt to sleep.
My husband even pointed this out to me and I began praying and prayed off and on all the way home. At one time, I almost wrote “God loves you” on a slip of paper and pass over to him but didn’t, but did continue to pray about his true identity as a child of God. My heart filled with love for this young man and as we landed and were in line to leave the plane, my eyes met the clearest blue eyes as I asked him if he was feeling better. He replied that he was and I told him I had been praying for him the entire trip. We just smiled at each other and I will never see him again but I know we will both remember that trip. In my heart, I knew he was well.
“Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4
Often when we are asking for help when experiencing a challenge, whether it is physical, financial or problems with relationships, there is doubt of deserving God’s help. This was what I was thinking when I was reading about Peter cutting off the ear of the soldier who was arresting Jesus. He didn’t hesitate in reprimanding Peter and immediately healed the man’s ear. Surely, humanly this soldier didn’t merit this act of forgiveness.
From there, I begin to think of the world’s concept of riches is grasping and hoarding while God’s way includes letting go and giving. Humanly, none of us are probably worthy of God’s goodness, but it is given us by grace. 1 Peter 1:8 reads “Though you have not seen Him, you love Him; and even though you do not see Him now, you believe in Him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy.” This is all possible by the grace of God.
This morning while at my desk, I received a telephone call saying my teacher, (who seemed like my mother, sister, best friend) passed on a few hours earlier. There seems to be a void in my life right now but I know that void is filled with Love. Human belief tells us we need to grieve and grieve if we really loved someone. What a laugh! I can almost hear her say “Rebecca, you’ve got this!” She would want her life celebrated, not mourned! As I watch a bird fly out of my sight through the window, it is true with her. She is just out of my line of vision.
Romans 12:2 says “Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is — His good, pleasing and perfect will.” Today, I will celebrate all life!
This morning I read an article about a woman who, for months, had a pain in her neck. During this time, she prayed and prayed about it. One day over lunch with a friend, the conversation turned to someone this woman strongly disliked. During this conversation she was reminded that our true being is spiritual, perfect and harmonious. Her constant feeling of dislike about this person had become habitual without her even recognizing it. Soon after praying to see this person as God sees her, there was a resolution and the relationship was healed. Shortly after, the pain was gone in her neck because there was absolutely no tension when she thought about the other person.
As I was pondering this, I was reminded about a political figure who I didn’t like and was always listening to garbage about this person. Since I didn’t know this person personally, I didn’t see the harm until I realized that I was disobeying God. I John 3 :7 states “Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God.” That means everyone! We can not pick and choose who we see as the child of God.