Recently saw a photograph of raindrops on a red rose that was so beautiful! Decided I wanted to paint it and have started over more than a half dozen times. It is in my head but I can’t transfer it to a canvas. The more I try, the more frustrated I become and I just want to give up. The irritation doesn’t stop with the painting.
A light comes on and I stop to pray. John 5:30 states “I can of mine own self do nothing:” Then I see there was no humility nor love in my motive; just a desire to prove “I can do this!” Now, I look in all parts of my life to see where I need to be more loving and humble and know with God’s help, of course I can paint this rose and will release human will power and human outlining but come from expressing Love and sees what shows up on the canvas!
As I sit at my desk this morning, reading the Bible and praying , it occurs to me that I have every reason in the world to be joyful! So often, the carnal mind tries to come in and tell me I need to be concerned and worried, but I soon detect this message is not from God. Psalms 84:31 reads “The glory of the Lord shall endure for ever: the Lord shall rejoice in His works.” That verse tells me that if God is rejoicing in His work, then so should I.
The times I feel burdened is the exact time I think I can do something without God and I humbly turn to Him, laying all my burdens on the altar. As I become more grateful for this understanding, I soon see God everywhere and know He has never lost control; no matter what the carnal mind is screaming at us. Today is the Lord’s Day and I will praise Him.
This is almost embarrassing to share and I think I will anyway. Since I bank online, my credit score is available with one click. From time to time, I will check it. It is always very, very high and I am glad of that, but today it had dropped almost 100 points. Then I found myself wondering what could have happened. Nothing had changed and I did spend some time questioning this.
It is wise to keep up with bills, etc. but to let it effect your self-worth may need to be addressed. My self-worth has nothing to do with my bank account, price of my home or car or credit rating. Nobody’s true identity depends upon that information. Job 22:21 states “Submit to God and be at peace with Him; in this way prosperity will come to you.”
My heart fills with humility as I think about spending thirty minutes trying to figure something like that out humanly. At the same time, I am filled with gratitude to see how far I have come! Thank you, Father that I caught my thinking earlier than I would have years ago.
Yesterday, I allowed my feelings to be hurt by a dear family member. For a while, there was self-pity, self-justification, self-condemnation, etc. even after knowing that the battle is always God’s, never mine. This morning as I humbly prayed to see what God sees, I was led to Matthew 12:48, 50 which reads “But Jesus answered the one who was telling Him and said, ‘Who is My mother and who are my brothers?'” ‘For whoever does the will of My Father who is in heaven, he is My brother and sister and mother.'”
This is exactly what I needed to hear to remove all of the “self”‘s. Then I began seeing this precious one as a child of God and simply loved her more. Love is always the answer, no matter what the problem seems to be. My prayer recently had been to see God/Love in every situation so I was given that opportunity to do so.
This morning I read and re-read this passage which states “And as Jesus passed by, He saw a man which was blind from his birth. And His disciples asked Him, saying, Master, who did sin, this man, or his parents, that he was born blind? Jesus answered, neither hath this man sinned, nor his parents: but that the works of God should be made manifest in him.”
Whenever we have a challenge, it is never, ever punishment but is only the opportunity to know God better and our relationship to Him! There can be no inheritance of family weaknesses or traits when we truly understand everything is to glorify God. So often, we want to look for a cause in the human scene and that search only leads to confusion. By keeping our focus on God/Good, what we need to know is always revealed to us. Man can never be separated from God.
Yesterday we were on a four-hour flight home after a week-end of Church meetings. As the plane filled up, there was a young man across the aisle from us who was obviously suffering. His eyes were red and he constantly was wiping his face with a tissue and blowing his nose. He would alternate from putting his head on the tray in front of him to pulling his cap over his face to lean back and attempt to sleep.
My husband even pointed this out to me and I began praying and prayed off and on all the way home. At one time, I almost wrote “God loves you” on a slip of paper and pass over to him but didn’t, but did continue to pray about his true identity as a child of God. My heart filled with love for this young man and as we landed and were in line to leave the plane, my eyes met the clearest blue eyes as I asked him if he was feeling better. He replied that he was and I told him I had been praying for him the entire trip. We just smiled at each other and I will never see him again but I know we will both remember that trip. In my heart, I knew he was well.
“Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4
Often when we are asking for help when experiencing a challenge, whether it is physical, financial or problems with relationships, there is doubt of deserving God’s help. This was what I was thinking when I was reading about Peter cutting off the ear of the soldier who was arresting Jesus. He didn’t hesitate in reprimanding Peter and immediately healed the man’s ear. Surely, humanly this soldier didn’t merit this act of forgiveness.
From there, I begin to think of the world’s concept of riches is grasping and hoarding while God’s way includes letting go and giving. Humanly, none of us are probably worthy of God’s goodness, but it is given us by grace. 1 Peter 1:8 reads “Though you have not seen Him, you love Him; and even though you do not see Him now, you believe in Him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy.” This is all possible by the grace of God.