While working at my desk this morning, I suddenly remembered how other people’s opinion was very important to my mother. There was always a “What will the neighbors think?) or how will something look or being dressed in our finery for Church. On some level, I knew that was not how I wanted to live my life. For years, I may have gone to the other extreme, but there came a time when I realized I just wanted to please God. Psalm 62:5-8 says it best for me “Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; He is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge.”
While studying this morning, I began thinking about this season. It is often said that “Love is in the air”. This is so much more than a personal Love, but a heart-felt love for everyone and everything. New growth is everywhere as well as evidenced by nature. It is a mental state and certainly does not have to be limited by the month of April but can be felt everyday when we awake to how important our thoughts are.
Psalm 16:11 reads “You will show me the path of life; in Your presence is fullness of joy; at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.” This does not say that this time of year is necessary to feel this joy!
Have not been writing my blogs lately because it seems I have not been feeling up to par. Then, it dawned on me today that yes, I do need to write. Have been very quiet for the last few weeks, but actually feel I have used this time in quiet prayer and humanly, it hasn’t looked like a vacation, but have felt God with me every step of this journey.
Mainly, my verse has been I John 4:18 which reads “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears in not made perfect in love.” It took sometime for me to realize I was not being punished for thinking the wrong thoughts, doing the wrong things, nor saying the wrong thing. This was about my learning more about God and my relationship to Him, which has never, ever been less that perfect. I am not looking for perfection but starting with being spiritually perfect! I have never been separated from God as none of us has. He is right with us patiently waiting for us to humbly turn to Him.
Today I decided I would delve into the Beatitudes one by one. The first one is Matthew 5:3 which reads “Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.” Admittedly, that was never my favorite until I realized that was exactly when I turned to God wholeheartedly and was more willing to listen. Otherwise, my thought is so filled with worldly nonsense and worry, that peace can never find a space. This morning I will quieten my thought until I feel that peace.