Have not been writing my blogs lately because it seems I have not been feeling up to par. Then, it dawned on me today that yes, I do need to write. Have been very quiet for the last few weeks, but actually feel I have used this time in quiet prayer and humanly, it hasn’t looked like a vacation, but have felt God with me every step of this journey.
Mainly, my verse has been I John 4:18 which reads “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears in not made perfect in love.” It took sometime for me to realize I was not being punished for thinking the wrong thoughts, doing the wrong things, nor saying the wrong thing. This was about my learning more about God and my relationship to Him, which has never, ever been less that perfect. I am not looking for perfection but starting with being spiritually perfect! I have never been separated from God as none of us has. He is right with us patiently waiting for us to humbly turn to Him.
My husband was telling me of something he had read that I loved and certainly related to it. Someone had posted online that he had been in a Dollar Store and there was a mom, toddler and older child when the toddler began crying for a pack of glow sticks. She opened the package and gave him a glow stick and he was happy until the older child took it from him.
Just when the mother was going to jump the older child, he bent the stick and gave it back to his younger brother and the stick began to glow to the toddler’s delight. “I had to bend it so it would glow!” he said. The man watching this almost ran from the store because in his thought, he could hear God saying “I had to break you first so you could glow.” This brought tears to my eyes as I could know this for the Truth for me.
Colossians 1:27 states “To them God has chosen to make known among the Gentiles the glorious riches of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.” Sometimes, we must be broken first.
As I have been studying the Beatitudes in Matthew 5, I have been reading “The Gentle Art of Blessing” by Pierre Pradervand at the same time and found it very helpful. In the book, the author tells about how he began blessing others and especially those who had hurt him in some way. He told how he just didn’t use the words, but dug deep to see everyone’s true identity.
This spoke to me as I think of those that may not be my favorite people and then the list grew as I became amazed. If I truly love God, I must find Him in everyone. What a great lesson! That is exactly what I will do.
Today I decided I would delve into the Beatitudes one by one. The first one is Matthew 5:3 which reads “Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.” Admittedly, that was never my favorite until I realized that was exactly when I turned to God wholeheartedly and was more willing to listen. Otherwise, my thought is so filled with worldly nonsense and worry, that peace can never find a space. This morning I will quieten my thought until I feel that peace.
Yesterday morning as I drove an hour and a half one-way to read the Bible Lesson with some people, the fog was so heavy I could barely see the entire trip. This had happened once before and I remembered praying so hard that I could almost hear God tell me to keep my eyes on the car ahead. That and trust in Him was all that I had needed. Then I remembered that at times I want to know how God is going to work things out ahead of time. Daily he guides me and that is all that is necessary.
2 Corinthians 4:18 reads “So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” When I flip a switch, a light comes on and when I turn a key, the car starts. These are things I know , so shouldn’t I trust God in every situation?
This morning while studying and praying about the day, my first thought was about a meeting I have in an hour. I am the treasurer of an organization and it is time for the annual report and audit. Of course, there is nothing to fear, but dread creeps into my thinking. I suddenly realize that the only time there seems to be a struggle in my life is when human will, pride and ego are at the forefront. As I humbly release this fear to God, at the same time the dread is released and I know I can enjoy this meeting rather than just focus on it being over!
“I will instruct you and teach you in the way should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.” Psalm 32:8 This is not something I have to do on my own, but put my trust in Him.
“Being” says to me that we are already complete and should always work out from Spiritual perfection. That’s where humility and gratitude are important because with that mind set, Truth can be readily attained and understood. “Becoming” always denotes a future time, here later or hereafter. That to me seems like an unreachable goal. There can be no imperfection in perfection and when we start with that concept, we can also realize there is never a limitation of Good or God in omniscience, omnipresence and omnipotence which God is. My search is never without but within. Genesis 1:27 states “So God created man in His own image, in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them.” Doesn’t that say spiritually perfect if we are created in His image?