Last week packages of baked goodies were mailed to grandchildren and a great-niece in New York City. Paying for it to go second day, it was to be delivered on Friday, which it wasn’t and on Saturday, they left a notice at her door. On Monday, she went to the post office and was told it was on the truck and she would have to come back later. Here, at home, I began angry and called the local post office and was told it was out of her hands after it left here. Feeling very justified, I wanted to continue on until I knew I was trying to be right. The choice was mine. Did I want to turn to God or continue to be right and unhappy? I was led to Ephesians 3:20-21 which reads “Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.”
There was a total feeling of helplessness when it dawned on me that I am helpless without God, which can never be. I can’t pick and choose when I turn to God, but I knew I just experienced “human will” and “pride” and “ego”. As I release this to God, I know He has this! Rather than have my day ruined, I am rejoicing that I am not in control but knowing God is!
While working at my desk this morning, I suddenly remembered how other people’s opinion was very important to my mother. There was always a “What will the neighbors think?) or how will something look or being dressed in our finery for Church. On some level, I knew that was not how I wanted to live my life. For years, I may have gone to the other extreme, but there came a time when I realized I just wanted to please God. Psalm 62:5-8 says it best for me “Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; He is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge.”
We just returned home from a 1500 plus mile trip where we were protected in many ways. The trip was to attend our granddaughter’s outdoor wedding and after arriving, rain was in the forecast. The wedding was about 17 miles away from the city where they live and it had become very cloudy. As I was praying about this weather, it occurred to me that nothing can dampen nor darken Good and God is Good and ever-present.
As we drove away from the city, it became lighter and lighter and I knew and felt God’s presence. The wedding was beautiful and dry. There was love expressed everywhere. I Chronicles 16:27 states “Splendor and majesty are before Him; strength and joy in His dwelling place.” came to thought! What a wonderful event!
The first verse I read this morning was 1Corinthians 1:20 which states “Has God not exposed the foolishness of this world’s wisdom?” How perfect and applicable for today. One can only listen to the news to see how absurd and divisive it is. There are so many opinions and differing views. While praying to see what God knows, am reminded about Moses throwing down his rod and it becoming a serpent. The problem was the illusion because the rod was always there. Right here, right now the Christ is and we need to set aside petty differences and having to be right and quietly listen for the Truth.