While it appears I am getting stronger daily, I remember my strength comes from God and I just need to claim it, not regain it. While giving praise and noticing flowers and cards all around, right then when I would be feeling the Love, I think of someone I haven’t heard from during this time. Immediately, I recognize this thought coming from the carnal mind mentioned in the Bible which is enmity against God.
Rejecting a thought to try and pull me down, I humbly give thanks that I need not entertain it, but just reject it with the understanding that Love is all! Pondering III John 1:2, which states “Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth.” , I know the choice is mine to contemplate this Truth rather than some error of any kind. Gratitude and humility reign within as I think about Easter and its promises.
This morning while at my desk, reading and praying and rejoicing, after being in bed for a month, my heart overflows with joy. Am working with Isaiah 43:1, 2 and 4 which reads “now thus saith the Lord that created thee, O Jacob, and He that formed thee, O Israel, Fear not: for I have redeemed thee by thy name; thou art mine. When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee. Since thou wast precious in my sight, thou hast been honourable, and I have love thee:”
Never does He say that we won’t have to pass through the waters, nor walk through the fire, but He does say, He will be with us. As I think about my earlier prayers, I can remember praying for more humility and grace so I could hear Him better. This past month has been just that and I am so grateful for this lesson that became the biggest blessing of my life. Only Spiritual growth is going on!
This last month has been spent mostly in bed and I have not felt like writing. This morning I began pondering recent events and noticed my focus has been on recovering to full health, rather than spending time on gratitude. The Bible even tells us to be grateful in all things. Also, have been studying Jesus’s healings and they were so varied and I do know that His healing is for all time, not just for those short three years. Nothing is impossible to God.
Jeremiah 17:7 states “But blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in Him.” That, to me, means all of the time, not just in the good times.
Have not been writing my blogs lately because it seems I have not been feeling up to par. Then, it dawned on me today that yes, I do need to write. Have been very quiet for the last few weeks, but actually feel I have used this time in quiet prayer and humanly, it hasn’t looked like a vacation, but have felt God with me every step of this journey.
Mainly, my verse has been I John 4:18 which reads “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears in not made perfect in love.” It took sometime for me to realize I was not being punished for thinking the wrong thoughts, doing the wrong things, nor saying the wrong thing. This was about my learning more about God and my relationship to Him, which has never, ever been less that perfect. I am not looking for perfection but starting with being spiritually perfect! I have never been separated from God as none of us has. He is right with us patiently waiting for us to humbly turn to Him.
My husband was telling me of something he had read that I loved and certainly related to it. Someone had posted online that he had been in a Dollar Store and there was a mom, toddler and older child when the toddler began crying for a pack of glow sticks. She opened the package and gave him a glow stick and he was happy until the older child took it from him.
Just when the mother was going to jump the older child, he bent the stick and gave it back to his younger brother and the stick began to glow to the toddler’s delight. “I had to bend it so it would glow!” he said. The man watching this almost ran from the store because in his thought, he could hear God saying “I had to break you first so you could glow.” This brought tears to my eyes as I could know this for the Truth for me.
Colossians 1:27 states “To them God has chosen to make known among the Gentiles the glorious riches of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.” Sometimes, we must be broken first.
As I have been studying the Beatitudes in Matthew 5, I have been reading “The Gentle Art of Blessing” by Pierre Pradervand at the same time and found it very helpful. In the book, the author tells about how he began blessing others and especially those who had hurt him in some way. He told how he just didn’t use the words, but dug deep to see everyone’s true identity.
This spoke to me as I think of those that may not be my favorite people and then the list grew as I became amazed. If I truly love God, I must find Him in everyone. What a great lesson! That is exactly what I will do.
Today I decided I would delve into the Beatitudes one by one. The first one is Matthew 5:3 which reads “Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.” Admittedly, that was never my favorite until I realized that was exactly when I turned to God wholeheartedly and was more willing to listen. Otherwise, my thought is so filled with worldly nonsense and worry, that peace can never find a space. This morning I will quieten my thought until I feel that peace.