As I sit at my desk this morning, studying my Bible lesson and praying, there is a nagging doubt whether or not my prayer will be answered. Immediately, I realize this thought is not from God! The raising of Lazarus is in the lesson and I read where Mary was doubtful that anything could be done for her brother who had been pronounced dead four days earlier. But Jesus ignored this lack of faith and as John 11:41-44 states, ” Then they took away the stone from the place where the dead was laid. And Jesus lifted up his eyes, and said Father, I thank thee that thou has heard me. And I knew that thou hearest me always: but because of the people which stand by I said it, that they may believe that thou hast sent me. And when he thus had spoken, he cried with a loud voice, Lazarus, come forth. And he that was dead came forth, bound hand and foot with graveclothes: and his face was bound about with a napkin. Jesus saith unto the, Loose him, and let him go.” Even Mary’s lack of faith could not hinder the Christ. Lazarus was still raised up.
My daily prayer is for more grace and discernment and is done in steps, not overnight. I will be gentle with myself as I grow spiritually daily.