For so many years, my Daytime Planner was completely filled and daily lists seem to be pages long. I was usually “multi-tasking” so I was never in the present completing a project. In Luke 10:41-42, “Martha, Martha, the Lord answered, you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”
Today, I realize that could have applied to my life back then. As I have matured spiritually, going to God first with everything has allowed me to probably do even more than before, but it is with a joyousness, rather than a struggle of human will. No longer do I attack a project with such an intensity as to blind one, but I relish the unfoldment of God’s plan.
With expectancy of Good, I look to see what God has planned for me this day.
For years when I read “The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.”, I thought it meant I should not have ambition or want anything. Now, as I read it, I know it to mean I shall not want for Good because it is always here. There is no lack of Good in my Life. Realizing God never makes mistakes and then corrects them, I must be and am in my perfect place! When all “self-pity, self-righteousness, self-condemnation, self-justification” is seen through as the nothingness it is, I can experience nothing but joy, peace and Love.
This morning I was led to begin my day with listening to a tape on Love and was once again reminded that God is the Source of all Love. Disappointment always comes to me if I am depending on Love from a human source.
Deuteronomy 30:20 states, “And that you may Love the Lord your God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to Him. For the Lord is your life, and he will give you many years in the land he swore to give to your fathers, Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.” He always knows what we need and every prayer is answered to fulfill our highest Good.
While growing up, my mother was sometime obsessive about my sister and I writing thank you notes and being grateful for gifts we received. No time could lapse between receiving a gift and a note being mailed. This looks like a trait that I have inherited and often, I become offended if I do not feel appreciated.
Being painfully honest, I have to look within and check my motives and I am reminded of Matthew 6:1, “Be careful not to do your acts of righteousness before men, to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven”.
Also, I know I cannot be dragged down by thinking I can inherit anything but Good!
Some years ago, there was an issue with a Church member. It was very evident this person did not like me for some reason. I tried ignoring, speaking, avoiding and then, I prayed! Obviously, I began with God and knowing he does not recognize error in any form and this was blatant error. Also, I stopped manipulating an outcome I had envisioned.
Recently, I had a telephone conversation with this person and it was joyous and loving and when we said our good-byes, I was told I was loved! I don’t even know when the healing took place and I’m not positive I remember what it was about, but I do know it happened when I released the problem to God!
As I study to understand more of my relationship to God, He is seen everywhere. Recognizing that all my Good and security come from Him, I am freed from all fear and negative thinking. Man can never be separated from God for even an instant.
“Yet, O Lord, you are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand.” Isaiah 64:8 He doesn’t add to that scripture that once that is done, we are on our own!